Those Days ..

My fondest Global Communications Training memories were learning the English language and how to pronounce it correctly. Second, was meeting my trainers who helped me deal with pronunciation and grammar. My batchmates were my happy pills. Everyday was a learning experience for me. Before, I thought, I was pronouncing the English words properly. It changed when I took the Communications Training. At first, it was not easy for me, but I took it as a challenge. I knew I need to get out of my comfort zone. Everyday was getting tougher, and I admit, I was on the verge of giving up. I was already frustrated and I felt like I’m no good. All the negative things that I thought ,were consuming me. I was really having a hard time to the point that I can no longer breathe. Doing the extemporaneous speech was the most challenging part for me. I needed to face my fears all the time, and talking in front of the crowd was my weakness. Global Communications Training has a great impact when it comes to my confidence. I can say that, I improved a lot. The way I spoke and use the English language gave me a satisfaction in a way.

All the memories I had here were the best experience that I will ponder for the rest of my life. I was able to express myself more and had the courage to speak in front of people. I enjoyed the activities that were assigned every time we needed to do something in the class. It was really fun learning the English language and interacting with different kinds of people was not bad at all. I learned that being in a crowd was also fun and exciting. I overcame some of my fears and slowly I was getting out of my comfort zone. Global Communications Training also taught me how to socialize and appreciate other people. Learning and socializing were fun. I was learning new things that I knew would be beneficial when it comes to my career and improving myself for the better.


A Brave Heart

Speak! This was the word she’s yelling in her mind, but no words came out. She has a lot of things to say, ideas to share, thoughts to ponder, but she cannot say the words. She was stuck in that moment when everything went blank. She cannot hear the people because her heartbeat was so loud. Seconds became minutes and minutes became hours. Speak! Speak! Still, no words were uttered. She was drowning in the sea of people. The crowd was consuming her, and she had lost her composure under the pressure of the situation.

At the same time, she managed to get back to her senses. She didn’t give up despite the struggles she encountered. It just made her a better person. She picked herself up and flaunted her hair as if nothing happened. She was brave enough to stand on her feet again. It was not easy but she overcame it.

Complicated Heart

The sky watched us as we wandered along the boulevard of the never ending story of us.
Our small footsteps create a loud noise, our conversations wake the universe, our laughs generate music that capture the beauty of the night. Our scent lingers on the breeze.

But something bothers me, my feelings. I am quite unsure of it. Something has changed.

We are on the same sky sharing a different view.

What I see is a diamond sparkling before me. It shines so bright it makes me blind. The light is captivating my sight.

I am always staring though it’s hurting my eyes, I tried not to, however,

I can’t help but be drawn to the diamond.

I thought I was okay. I thought I can easily cope with the type of working environment I am in. I thought I can handle so much stress and pressure. I thought that maybe I will be used to it. I don’t wanna quit but most of the times it always crossed my mind. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’m not good enough, even if I tried my best to be good in this kind of field. There comes a point when I’m doubting myself, my abilities to do the job. I don’t know if I’m really into this. My colleagues are not giving up on me, but here I am, thinking of giving up. What to do? It’s like I’m battling with myself. I don’t know how to overcome this kind of feeling. I need a break. I need to breathe.

New Work Environment

Finally, got the urge to write again.

I am not really good when it comes to communication skills. I am always having a hard time in communicating effectively. But, as for now, due to my nature of work, I’m getting used to it. Slowly, I am coping in this kind of environment and at the same time developing my communication skills, which is a good sign. There are those moments when I want to quit, mostly all the time. With the help of my colleagues, I managed not to give up. I never expected that I would ever go this far, that I can handle so much pressure, stress, and frustrations.  Well, I’m really learning a lot in this toxic work environment. I already stepped out of my comfort zone. Little by little, I am learning on how to boost my self confidence at work.

My team has never let me down. They’re always there to guide, help, and motivate me. I am so grateful to be part of a great team. In a span of 2 months, it seems like I’ve already known them for years. We’re family. They’re my reason why I go to work everyday.

That’s all for tonight. I need to be physically and mentally ready for work tomorrow (Monday madness).